Deep Entry..enough said.

This is going to be a deep entry.

It's about one of these theories I have....

No funny witticism, just seriousness. (Okay, I can't turn the funny off,but I try)
The theory is that from misery we get happiness.You might not agree with that when you are in misery or depression.Because you don't see the happiness in life at all.But once that chapter of your life is closing an a happier one is opening, you see that what you went through has made you happier and understand yourself, and as a whole...life better. You needed that chapter in your lifelike when I graduated middle school I felt really bad because I sort of have a hard time with change. And usually people randomly change over the summer, or at least that’s what I thought according to television. But my best friend basically told me if we ever grow apart or one of us changes; said person gets a really mean beat down so they stay in check.

But now that I’m in High school I still seem like my self and I sort of grew like half an inch which isn’t considered change so no beat down necessary.

Also the whole, go to the high school in your district thing I think is a load of bull. It splits up really good friendships; enough said.Those two events, happend to me at the same time. At that point, I slipped into a small depression. It's where I found that if anyone got really close to me I had to push them away.

But thanks to that I now know not to get attached to people now recently, I've found out that picking up books and getting lost in them stops me from slipping. I get to go into a different time period, into someone else’s thoughts. Not mine.

Misery isn’t a bad think; it helps you see a whole different part of yourself, but you mustn’t loose yourself, sometimes you have to find the happy in the dark and gloomy or you’ll completely lose yourself.

Where do you think all the poets and song writers got those lyrics from?They probably had to have misery to write that.

No one’s happy all the time, I promise you you’ve been sad once in your life. And if you say “NO” you haven’t then I have a lot to learn.

Tell me what you think about my theory.

Haha, Damn I'm deep =),

B.izzle

Brink of seclusion {B.S}

Hey! So I know I haven't been on for the longest of time...yeah that didn't make sense but at least I got my point through, I hope that piece of stupidity wasn't completely wasted. I'm on my Spring Break of '08, lmfao so am I the only person who finds it fascinating that it rhymes? Yeah I'd love to tell you how I got my Porsche and was whisked off to a tropical island and now typing on my new laptop while sipping out of a coconut...Gawd how agonizing was it to write that sentence, it was torment. By the way for those who are slow at sarcasm, none of the above actually happened. Rofl my sarcasm really hurts people, but when I promise to tone it down...it's like mega sarcasm it cuts like a knife.
Any who; My so called friends left me to rot in dullsvile...well the ones who can afford a trip, Me, E, B, and S, and SP are stuck here, and way too lazy to call each other up and go somewhere. Seriously S is like sitting at home w/ tons of Mickey Dee rapers around her, ha ha she told me over Myspace, which I'm now addicted to again. Lol, I check it every waking minute for any new comments, etc... You see what happens w/ no school?? I'm a freakin wreck, a lazy, gaining by the minute wreck. Not to mention my sister, she's so annoying and she's like sitting behind me watching every word I type.

Random quotes of the day:

1. Yo, my names Mufasa I'm the king of the land, I'll come and smack you with the back of my hand.- J.B
2. Live like your at the bottom even if your at the top. - J.B
3. Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia.
4. A memory lasts forever never does it die, True friends stay together and never say goodbye.
5. This girl didn’t care what anybody said .She got the whole world dancing to the music in her head.They loved to trash her bad, laugh at her and call her names.And now they all try to copy her, isn't that a shame?It only made her stronger....
6. When a man sits with a pretty girl for an hour, it seems like a minute. But let him sit on a hot stove for a minute and it's longer than any hour. That's relativity.- A.E
7. There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.- A.E
8. True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, Nor can it be hidden where it truly does- A{ This girl can seriously ryhme for a brit.}
9. Two essences and one thought, two hearts and one pulse. - Moi{ A remake though =( }

Lators Aligators,

B.izzle

Breakdown magnet

Yeah, I just knew this week is going to be INSANE!!! First off, I thought it was going to be crazy just knowing that I will be having my entire 9th grade career be decide on by some gay, man-made..or machine, but people feed it the damn paper, that will be ruining my 9th grade career, freakin' paper pushers. Then my crackpot teachers say they'll be assigning it as some kinda grade on how well you did on there portion of the test. So this morning I woke and was like, 'Let's getter done' with this cheesy southern accent, and then midway in brushing my brothers like 'No school' and I kept brushing and got my cloths on, and then it hit me...And i started dancing in circles throwing my hands up in the air, looking like a total retard. Funny, we got like these pre-pre test examples and I sat there pulling my hair out, till i realized that I've done all this crap before. Haha thenI forgot my pencil was broken, and my backup was rolling away with it's ugly yellow number two self, I was all like:
I am soooo dead. I'm surprised I haven't broken down yet. By this time last year, I'd have had... about 10 break downs. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing... you know, that I haven't broken down yet, but I'm hoping it's a good sign.
So during lunch, after my pre-pre-breakdown thoughts, and hair pulling, I went to the library sneaking in a turkey rap, haha the librarian kept hearing it unfold and I kept pointing at some random kid, putting my finger to my lips and going "Shhhh...!"
Then I came home and ate like a freaking foot long sub, that I made. Midway through it my friend Lex called and was like "whatcha doing?" I swallowed and told her, then she's like "there going straight to your nonexistence thighs." and I laughed and choked and whipsered through coughs. "If I don't have any, then I'm allowed to eat." and then she hung up after saying. "See ya lah-tor, and if there's no thighs then it's going to be adding to your butt, and soon enough it'll have it's own website." I started laughing all over again, then realized that was an insult, so I wrote a really long myspace comment about how it was mean, and sent it to her. All I got back was. "I love you, you little midget." I'm not a midget, I'm 5'1 that's not anywhere near a kidget's height.

Blizzard of ' 08

T.G for blizzards, omg it's snowing so bad, they gave it a name, a certified title. Let me give you a brief idea, it's snowing so much, and it's so deep...I can go swimming in it. How freakin' great is that? Let me answer it's great...ha ha, it's so great that if I go outside I'll get a ticket, yup that's right if your caught outside they'll ticket you,and send you to a nice warm jail, with 3 square meals, the hobo's gonna be dancing tonight, ha ha, lamo couldn't help that one. No, seriously how great is it that if you don't have a home today, you'll actually be sent to somewhere under normal circumstances you'd hate to be, but today you'll love to be! Thank gawd for are messed up weather. Lmao, did you know that 2 days ago it was 60 degrees? and the day after it was like 40 degrees and raining, and today it's a blizzard. Well I gotta go.

Lator,

b.izzle

It's my future car! And I want it now!

So that AD didn't work as much as I believed it would. You think I shouldn't of wrote Loaded? That might of seemed like I was a gold-digger. Besides if I need gold, I can always go and dig outside of Disneyland at night, hopefully when the guards and there nightsticks are out of sight. Ha ha, that reminded me of that movie National Security or whatever the one with Martin Lawrence in it, the part where the police guy is trying to get the bee away from him, and it looks like he's beating Martin instead. Ha ha, there's like a one in a million chance that would ever happen to be, mostly cause I'm not allergic to bee's but I am deadly afraid of them...and squirrels but that another post. Will G2G but remember, if anyone happens to find a Porsche 911 Turbo, or happens to steal it.. I'll gladly return it to it's rightful owner...ME =].

If thats not living large, then im happy living small.

So i must admit that as of lately i have been doing horrible job in updating. if i had enough energy, i would spend the next hour typing lines upon lines of words that most would just skim through anyway....so to make it short, I've been busy. school.Tests. life. its been quite hectic. All i want is a breath of fresh air...that could possible be taken in a Porsche 911 turbo . I have received such wonderfully horrible news that I've never been happier in my life; how ironic I've been wishing for a perfect life for such a long time, and now that I'm almost close to achieving it, I'm ecstatic every terrible little thing that I hear. Whoa, I'm turning into a grade-A crack-pot. (Note: I have never done drugs, okay so I might have sold some, Porsche's are not cheap people....ha ha, J/k)
Oh, did I tell you all, I'm posting a world-wide ad. I'm post below what it's suppose to look like

Where art thou Loaded Prince Charming!?

Beautiful Princess trapped in small town Ohio, clearly not a gold digger; Princess is better looking than Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping beauty, etc... Will not turn into repulsive ogre, as seen in Sherk. Beauty, brains, bronze (Whatever that is.) Need of loan of 126,000 dollars, or 99,999 Euros either is fine, will also pay in limbs except legs and arms, Damn will not pay in limbs or I simply cannot drive the Porsche 911 Turbo .
NOTE: Princess is a tad bit stubborn,self-righteous,intimidating, and can kick your ass if you do not hand over my Porsche 911 turbo.